Caroline's Testimony

‘My long-distance healing session with Jeanne Marie - December 12th 2020’
 
When Jeanne first approached me for a healing session, I pondered the question of what needed to be healed. Equipped with an iron constitution, I had never suffered from any major health problems. I did feel, however, that my body was engaging in a dialogue with me or rather a monologue as I was very well aware that I had very often brushed off any discomfort and melancholic fits as being temporary.
 
What was it in me that needed to be verbalized, acknowledged and finally brought to light?
 
She called me on Monday Dec.7th and offered me a long-distance healing session. I gave myself a few days to reflect on where I should concentrate my efforts; on Saturday, Dec.12th, it became clear: my ovaries had started working up again.
Between the ages of 40-43, I had experienced pain, related to ovarian cysts. Then quite suddenly, the pain subsided and stopped. Now, aged 52, the pain had come back since September. Every month, after the end of my menstrual cycle, I felt a sharp pain in my lower abdomen, more intense when it was situated on the left side of my body but present in both ovaries when I menstruated in an alternating fashion each month.
           
Jeanne instructed me to lie down and place a pillow under my shins. I was at home, in my bedroom and the door was closed. It was 7 p.m. my time. Winter has arrived in Quebec, Canada therefore it was dark and still all around. We were on speakerphone close to my pillow so I could place both hands on my stomach.

I breathed deeply. Right from the start, when she told me to feel the energy from the tips of my soles moving upwards, I felt energy travelling upwards in my body. When it arrived around the perimeter of the ovaries, the pain underwent a transformation. It tingled and dispersed itself; from a solid bar of pain, it was dispersed throughout my abdomen: much like a dam collapsing, making way for small tidal waves. I felt my pain subsiding progressively. I literally felt her hands touching my abdomen (more precisely the area between my belly button and pubis), wrapping that part of my body with warmth and benevolence. Then she asks me how I felt and what my thoughts were. This is what I remember:
 
My body speaks to me about tenderness, nurturing, the need to acknowledge that I had always omitted to touch my belly, to accept it as part of my OWN body. Rather it had been something distant, too fragile or delicate to deal with - always apart from the rest. I long to rekindle with my femininity, to accept it perhaps for the very first time. To integrate my womb and cherish it. I asked it for forgiveness, for having shut it out for so long. The words come slowly but crudely, clear as a bell. I hear Jeanne’s voice, which modulates softly. I hear her breathe deeply and it is a reassuring sound. I feel confident that what I am saying is being received with respect...
 
Jeanne: you are in your head, the center of your control, typical in our Western Culture.
I now feel her hand moving upwards on my forehead, heat is now centered around my nape and upper shoulders.
Jeanne: I see your father – does it resonate?
Yes I tell her, and it comes out: he was angry at my strength.
Me: Femininity equaled weakness for him? Nod. I don’t want to go there tonight but I feel that I do give a lot of power to my head, allows me to be strong.

She mentions to me that I probably withdraw in my head at work… well, at work, I also use my heart, I create a tunnel of light for my students, encompass them in love and understanding.
Jeanne: when you come back home, do you go back to your head?
Yes, you’re right, I say. Then it comes out: I need to give myself love.
Jeanne: I hear I don’t deserve it.
Oh Jeanne, if you knew how far back that goes. I had forgotten about it. Forgotten that I had worked hard to renew my self-esteem.
 
I’m however handling a second conflict at the same time. On the cusp of my menopause, I feel that my body, in its nulliparous state (non-maternity /never had nor lost any child), is sending me strong signals… My body aches to be itself. As I enter this new phase in my life, I feel that I have to share, pass along feminine wisdom to younger people. Experience maternity that way - experience womanhood.
 
What is this shield that you are holding up for others to see?

Jeanne: I remember when I painted you a long time ago, you had told me you felt that you had a man inside your body?
Yes, I remember. This impression has nothing to do with gender dysphoria; it’s more about strength, a Yin imbalance - feeling that I can only accomplish what I have to do by using my Yang energy. Jeanne leads me to understand that I must greet my womb and take the next few days to observe it and integrate it. At that point, Jeanne and I come to an agreement that a lot has been covered in the treatment. Next time, we can go further. In any case, I’m exhausted, as if I had done an intense yoga session.

She then performs an energy break, she slowly withdraws from the energy bond that she has created and do I ever feel it! I feel her energy separating from me; shudders go through my legs up to my shoulders. I feel like a rag doll that is being shaken, the pain in my abdomen radically changes and intensifies once more. Her presence has snapped, however I feel that I am in contact with my belly for the first time. I touch it lovingly, like a small animal that I am trying to tame. Following thought: Jeanne offered me benevolence, I feel grateful for her care and altruism.
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Reflections 1 week after the treatment Am I not enough?
 
My armor has collapsed - I have no need to feel guilty about whatever physical desires come my way. I welcome my femininity wholeheartedly. I want to make peace with my womanhood, which in fact does not hinder me. I embrace my vulnerability, it is not a weight to bear, but rather, a tranquil force that allows me to reach out to others: it won’t make me less strong, I will only appear in clear light. I have learned to wear my heart on my sleeve but time has come to offer my whole being. Very simply, lay it before others and say: ‘There, this is me I am important. I am lovable. I am a force to be reckoned with.’
 
Thank you Jeanne
 
You have allowed me to shed a skin that I have worn for too long, I now TOTALLY embrace the sweetness and humaneness that is so visible to others and that I often share with my students. Similar to a mirror, I will now work towards using it as a vector of compassion towards myself. It might take a bit of time but I’ve emerged out of the tunnel.
 
I have acknowledged my self-worth.
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LEARNING TO LET GO - March 10th 2024.

 I scheduled a treatment with Jeanne on January 7th. This was my 2nd treatment since I have been followed by a gynecologist for a few years now for ovarian cysts. An examination in the fall revealed that I had (4) cysts on my right ovary. Given that I am 55 years old, the specialist wanted to investigate if they could be potentially dangerous or, more specifically, cancerous. A few years ago, they had seen cysts on my left-hand side, and following a treatment with Jeanne there were no traces of these cysts. I am still undergoing my perimenopause phase therefore my body is adjusting to the hormonal changes and external factors (stress, fatigue, multi-tasking, activities) that I live through on a daily basis. I told the specialist that I wasn’t suffering from any pain, nor bloating or bleeding but he was adamant, I had to pass a magnetic resonance test to confirm the results. He had results from my previous gynecologist, which confirmed the presence of these cysts from an ultrasound test. At the time, I had not wanted to be operated for I didn’t experience any discomfort and didn’t want any external intervention. The magnetic resonance test would enable me to take a decision as to whether I would have them removed.

           
This is where Jeanne comes in. This long-time friend and trusted healer would be able to confirm if they were dangerous and see through my physical, emotional and spiritual state. The treatment was held at 4:30 PM and I was relaxed, lying naked in my bed. At first, she asked me if I had anything to say, I didn’t. I closed my eyes and started breathing deeply. I didn’t feel her touch at first, it took some 10 minutes but I was relaxed and her voice guided me with ease and confidence.

The first sensation that I can recall is that the right-hand side became cold, almost frozen, from my shoulder blade down to my thigh. I had to learn to let go and abandon myself to her touch. (I would be lying if I didn’t say that I did fear she would find something negative, I was in-between hope and stillness). I was trying as much as possible on concentrating on her voice, avoiding any invasive thoughts that pop up as they do when one starts to unwind.
 

Afterwards, she asked me if I felt her hand working around the ovary and I did, feel like she was INSIDE me, manipulating the ovary and gently poking around it. It was a painless experience. Afterwards, the cold gave way to a tingling along the same side. Jeanne suggested that my motherless state had something to do with my physical state. This rang a bell with me as I do have a maternal approach with my students, being a teacher, perhaps compensating for this motherless state. She told me I had been endowed with the gift of CARING and that my body was adjusting to this inner quality. That I had to use this gift as this was my path. I wasn’t sad (at being motherless) at that point, I just acknowledged that she was right, had seen through my thoughts. She told me that she had also detected that I feared death perhaps, and I told her that no, but that I wasn’t ready to go yet.
 

The treatment came to an end and just like last time, when she removed her hands, a huge shudder ran through me. I was serene but tired as well, I had worked alongside her touch, I was weary and sluggish. Most importantly, she told me that she didn’t detect an illness, that the cysts appeared benign. Nothing was said much after that but she did pray for me (we had discussed our spiritual points of view throughout the treatment). I fell in a deep sleep until the next morning.

On February 8th, I met with my gynecologist and he confirmed what Jeanne had said. I didn’t need an operation, the cysts would probably melt away by the time I would achieve my menopause state.
 

This is the 2nd time for a similar reproductive organ problem that Jeanne has assisted me and her work goes beyond just “checking” for problems. She allows us to become ONE with our body, to ponder on whether we LOVE OURSELVES enough to LET GO of life’s distractions and frenzy. Our body is a friend of ours, someone that we have overlooked perhaps. She greets our emotional state with benevolence and questions us in order for us to participate and work HAND-IN-HAND with her. She guides us spiritually in order for us to consider the SACRED BRIDGES that uphold us as individuals, loving beings and that we must reach out to for support.

Thank you Jeanne, all my gratitude goes out to you, beautiful soul and high-minded healer. You possess all the authority and wisdom it takes yet you are IMMENSELY RESPECTFUL always MEETING THE NEEDS of others. Namaste!